Cyberspace Love?

So I just turned 19, like my previous post stated, I'm pretty sure. And on the night of my birthday I clicked on some wrong thing and it ended me up on this online dating site. Now I'm an adult and can fill out stuff like this, so I did because let's be honest, I was lonely.

After putting up a picture and filling out a few questionnaires, I found this chatroom thing, and if you have a webcam you can video chat, which is neat, because you actually see the people's reactions to things instead of just assume. I liked that quite a bit. Okay, so I'd say 80 percent of the people on there were on there for...adult things, which is totally NOT why I was on there, because to tell you the truth, I just kind of filled it out on a whim. And just a fun fact here, I'm attractive to old not attractive men. Yay me.

Well anyways, tonight, second night on the site, and there's a little sidebar where you can see the people with webcams, and there's this one guy, mildly attractive, but the kind of guy who, you know is too good looking for me. I set my own limits, which is a terrible thing. But back to my story. So this guy says he has the hiccups in the public chat and I tell him my little secret (If you have the hiccups, you say "What swims in water? A fish!" and they go away..seriously, they do.) And it worked for mr. ripped fence guy. So I told him he was cute, I mean what do you say to strike up a conversation? "Oh did you hear about the plane that landed in the Hudson? yeah it was most likely caused by birds." But I digress, he replies with this charming answer expected and we end up talking for about 4 hours. Online. Never met. Talked for four hours, and then my computer wigged out, and so I said night and went on my way.

Now besides this guy having the kind of smile that just makes you blush, (which, I took a bathroom break somewhere in the middle and my gosh, I was blushing,) he made really good conversation. We talked about movies and music, and had some silly competition about who was more intelligent. It was fun. And I laugh at those online dating site commercials because they seem so cheesy, but are we too quick to judge the whole possibility of finding someone via the Internet, and I mean someone serious?

Shaun was a decent guy and we had real conversations, and the whole webcam added a whole different level to it, I mean I could see him laugh at my jokes and he could, see me blush. Ha. It was more personal than just typing a sentence in a box. Part of me hopes that Shaun and I spark up conversation again, and the other part is maybe trying to be a bit more open minded. Is the Internet a new way to go about love? Or simply a disaffected vice?

Whoa College

totally put a stand still on this whole blogging thing. It's not that I don't have time to write, I just have time to do better things. That's a good thing however isn't it?

Yesterday was my birthday, that was weird. Birthdays are weird. I feel oddly uncomfortable opening presents in front of people, it's like half of the present is your reaction. And I'm sorry I'm not going to fake a smile, if I don't like it, you can probably tell. It's just too much effort being nice ALL THE TIME. I mean don't be rude all the time either, but a good balance between nice and rude should suffice.

Also, got some decent recording stuff, maybe I'll actually put an EP together, ha? Music is what I'm going to college for anyways, better put it to good use.

Teenagers with an Attitude

So I don't know about you but I always loved the Blue Ranger. The Pink Ranger was always the girls (and boys) favorite girl and the red ranger was typically the boys (and girls) favorite boy. But I, I always liked the underdog.
Billy was all that and a bag of chips. He was always kinda cute and plus he was a total genius. The he blossomed from this nerdy kid to this very attractive young man. I think that's why I really like nerds, I'm hoping they'll transform into Billy.
Anyways, here I was going down memory lane and so I googled David Yost aka Billy aka Blue Power Ranger and he looks pretty good for forty, just saying.

He's still the best looking. Hands down.
If I was in trouble I'd want the Blue Power Ranger to rescue me, I don't care how old he is!

Dentistry is the Devil

This will be my third appointment within the time frame of three weeks and I'm dreading this one a lot. My appointment will be for 2 hours, yes, 2 hours. 2 hours of pure embarrassment and talking with my mouth held open. 2 hours of those gut wrenching dentist tool sounds, 2 hours of my lips getting dry, my face getting numb and my jaw being ultimately sore for weeks.
Consequently, that same night I have band practice for worship on Sunday, we'll see how that goes. I know I'll be in some serious pain. but no pain, no gain, and the worship is for god, so even if I can't open my mouth all the way, God will love it, right?

However my favorite Dentist would have to be Steve Martin. Good movie, good song, baddddd dentist.

Just one of those days

Things just start piling up if I don't deal with them, and I don't deal with a lot of things. I slept in today. Longer than I have in a while. But I knew as soon as I woke up something wasn't right. It's like you sleep too long and you miss something and it throws your whole day off..
One after another things seems to be falling apart, not at a phenomenal rate, but just enough to shake it up. And not in the good, "try new things" way of shaking things up. I know I shouldn't complain in fact there is very little to complain about in comparison to other's lives. Those around me, people I barely know. But today I just feel a little broken.
I have work 5 to close today, and I just have a feeling something is gonna go wrong. I hope it doesn't, goodness. I hope it doesn't. I'm dealing with a broken heart at the moment. Getting fired isn't really on my agenda.

Hollywoods Wholesome

Out of all the little stars that come out of hollywood, I think only one has truly stepped outside of the box. She did the whole bubblegum pop but honestly, her newest CD was phenonmenal. And yes, I do have it in my collection.

There are very few mainstream muscians that impress me, but Mandy Moore is one of them. Not only is she gorgeous and amazingly talented. She hasn't let the little petty trends of today bother her. She's healthy. I honestly wish I could be able to sing 1/2 as good as her. She's what I aim for I think, to have that passion, that talent. That's what I want.

A Form of Escape

I've been researching larping, alot. Seeing what kind of world I'm going to have to put one foot in come college. While it's all very weird, I will admit, the passion and dedication these people possess is a bit inspiring. It's an escape, like me with music or an artist with paint, it's all an escape. It's only when that pretend world starts affecting your real one that a problem presents itself.

I will go and fight, or at least watch and meet people. I also am going to be on the newspaper staff, so who knows, perhaps I can do a feature on it?



I'm a big fan of documentaries, believe it or not. So I will rent and watch this, when it comes out on video.